Another LONG awaited update...

Bear with me.. this one will be long. I haven't updated this thing in four months.. so I have LOTS to talk about!! LOL. I am having to reflect back upon Kade's memory book to help me along the way.
6/17/09- Kade was five months old when he suffered his first fracture.... a broken tibia. *sigh* I hope this is no sign of what is yet to come for me... but I have a sneaky feeling I am in for it from this boy! Kade had been doing really well at standing up while holding him. So, Steve decides to let him stand holding onto the couch. He places him in standing position in front of the couch, and Kade is holding on. Steve is sitting in the floor directly behind him with his hands pretty much placed on his back. Steve yells for me (I was making sandwhiches for lunch that day) and I come in the room to see a very happy smiling baby excited to be holding onto the edge of the couch. I of course.. run to get the camera. I didn't even have time to get the camera up when he started falling. No big deal, Steve was there... and he caught him. Only his left leg stayed planted while his body and right leg fell to the right. We heard a very loud "POP" and he began to scream in pain. I dropped the camera, Steve scooped up baby boy! We were all three crying while I examined his leg. He wasn't moving it.... but there was no immediate swelling. We decided to take him to the ER anyways b/c he wasn't moving it and he was crying. We put him in the car seat very carefully, and he finally stops crying. We load him in the car and notice he moves the leg. "WHEW!" I said to Steve. "Okay, time out. I need to take him back in and re-evaluate his leg." Upon examining it, I think he is okay, so I decide to NOT take a trip to the ER, but call his pediatrician who tells me to come in to his office. We take Kade, and he orders an x-ray on him. They do the x-ray .... it is negative. I looked at the films, and saw something somewhat questionable... but didn't doubt the radiologist b/c children's bones/growth plates can be somewhat confusing and make you think there is a fracture when in fact there isn't one there.. so we go home. Kade will still NOT use that leg. This goes on for a few days. Kade turned six months old on July 18th. By the time he got in for his six month check-up on the 29th of July, Kade still wasn't using the leg. So we brought it up at the appt. Dr Patz decided to refer him to Dr. Buckley (pediatric orthopedic doc) to evaluate him and see what further testing we should do. We got an appt to see Dr. Buckley on the 10th of Aug. The day before we were scheduled to go in and see him, Kade started using that leg to kick and was bearing weight on the leg. I had almost decided not to even take him in to the appt the next morning, but decided to be safer than sorry (just in case he stopped using it all of a sudden). They did another x-ray on his legs. Sure enough- you could see where the fracute was healing.. it was calcified. Which it is common not to see "toddler fractures" until they start healing. It was a small hair-line fracture in his left tibia. But had healed great, no displacement. So, no need for a cast/surgery/ or any further evals by the ortho doc unless problems started back up with him bearing weight on it. So yay. His fracture had healed on it's own before we actually knew it had been broken. LOL.
Six months old: Kade finally said "MAMA" for the first time. Also started saying "baba" and "nana" among other baby jibberish. He finally sit up all by him self this month. Still not crawling... although he would lie down on his belly and turn himself sideways on the floor. Oh- at his 6 month appt we were told he was doing great. Weighed in at 18lbs and 14 oz and was 26" long.
7 months old: Kade got his first taste of Baby mum-mums this month and OMG!!! He loves those things. He goes absolutely nuts if he sees the package!!! He also likes the teething biscuits too.. and can make such a mess when he eats them. Who knew little cracker-like snacks could be so messy. He also got to move up to stage 2 foods which he LOVES!! There is so much more variety! He first started clapping his hands. He loves peek-a-boo and patty cake! I can just say the words "pat-a-cake" and he would start clapping his hands. He is trying so hard to scoot this month. He does really good "mini-push-ups". Rolls over so much more this month. It gets him where he needs to go that is for sure. He is such a daddy's boy. It sickens me sometimes, but hey- they can't all love their mommy like Madi loves me! LOL. He first said "bye bye" this month. And actually waves bye too. He stares at his hands in such amazement. He flips them over and looks at the other side.. and can do this for like ten minutes at a time. LOL. Moved into our "new home" (so we thought) on the last day of his seventh month. He was finally going to have his own room!!! YAY!
8 months old: We closed on the three bedroom house we were selling on Kade's 8mo bday. OMG it was crazy. We had drama with something the mortgage company did wrong the night before we were closing. The day of that closing we got word it was fixed, but they had another error and we were going to come out about $300 short of what we had expected to get at closing. We were not happy, but just ready to get it over so we could close on our home. We go to closing.. sign all the papers.. and got NO check. We had to leave and run errands, eat lunch, and came back two hours later and still NO check. We sat in the attorney's office for almost another hour before finally we received our money. Kade got to where he would NOT sleep in his room. I got tired of him not sleeping and attributed it to the fact that he would not sleep lying flat and had to be in that bouncer to sleep. I got tired of his "addiction" to the bouncer and decided to sell it. So.. bye bye bouncer. Also, he outgrew his bath tub and since he was sitting up on his own so well, I just kissed that thing good bye as well. He started taking his baths in the big tub just like his big sister does! Kade did NOT adjust well at all to the no-bouncer sleeping. So, eventually, he wound up in bed with us. I was so sure he was teething. He was fussier than normal... and drooling and knawing on everything. In fact, he had been doing this for months now, but still no teeth. He started crawling backwards at first, even walked backwards when placed in his walker. He can semi-pull up if I am in the floor with him. He pulls up on me to a semi-standing position. He usually gets around by scooting everywhere. He will "crawl" one step forward, sit down, and repeat. This gets him around everywhere. He leared "uh-oh" and loves this word and uses it over and over. Learned to say "woof-woof" and "yay". If he hears anyone say " bye bye" he waves. The financing fell through on the house we had moved into and thought we were buying.. so we had to move out and moved into his mom's house down the street. The kids liked this at first since they were living with Nanny. Kade got his first toy car this month... a fire truck. Steve was VERY proud to buy his boy his first car. He went to wal-mart to get some milk, and came back with that truck. I thought that was sweet because he thought of his boy while he was out. He must have been in some "mood" that week because a few days earlier I had sent him to Walmart and he came back with a movie for Madi.. "Snow White" to be exact if I remember correctly. Madi started her very first dance/gym class this year. She is attending The Little Gym and loves it. I always hated ballet until I saw my little girl dancing around. IT is beautiful!!! SHe loves gym too. Kade learned cause-and-effect this month. Realized he could throw his cup from his high chair, it would hit the floor and got a reaction from Mommy or daddy. So he continued to do this repeatedly. And even learned to say "uh-oh" when he did it! I have seen a bit of a Mommy's boy coming out in him somewhat towards the end of this month. I like it! :) Kade absolutely loves watching Madi. He just laughs at her all the time.
9th month: Kade has really progressed this month! He has learned so many things and so quickly. He needs to really slow down!!! I thought the boy was never going to learn to crawl... well, he finally did it! He crawled slowly one day, fast the next. In fact, the first time he crawled fast (to get away from his big sister that was chasing him) he stopped and had a look of amazement upon his face like "wow... did I just really go that fast?" It was so cute!!! He tried yet another new addiction for him.... PUFFS. I remember Madi loved these, but OMG... not like Kade. He throws a fit if he sees the bottle. And SCREAMS if he runs out!!! He has started eating more table foods this month since his doctor informed us he could eat this stuff even if he didn't have teeth.. yep still no teeth. And no sign of them either even though he continues to fuss, drool, and knaw on everything in site. Doc says this is normal. His kids didn't get their first until 13 months. LOL. Kade loves mashed bananas, toast, cheese, oranges, heck- anything the boy can get really. Even butterbeans. LOL. Kade has started throwing toys/ his pappy" and then goes to retrieve them. Its so cute! He started dancing a lot this month. He sways side to side. Anytime you mention dance or he hears music on the radio or on tv, he goes to town dancing. One day it was just Steve, Kade and I in the car. I looked back and Kade was dancing in his car seat to the radio. LOL. He moved up into a bigger car seat. We finally got tired of struggling to buckle that big boy into his infant carrier. He is still rear-facing.. don't you worry about that. But it won't be long... he is over the weight limit.. now just waiting on the age limit and for him to walk so his neck muscles are well developed! He started drinking some from a sipi-cup. Juice and water mostly. He says "what" "pappy" (pacifier), "Maaadaaa" for Madi, "Woah" for hello, "nana" for nanny and for banana. LOL. Does the "come here" sign. Gets in crawling position, pushes his boom boom straight up in the air and flattens his feet. Looks like he is trying to stand up. He first stood up on his own. I had him in his "prison" and he uses a pillow from the couch to help him up. Then while his Nanny was packing up some items she didn't want out into a cardboard box... Kade decided to pull up using the box. He then progressed to pulling up on the couch.. and does it better and better this month. Trying to coast somewhat too.
10th Month: Kade is now pulling up on anything/anyone/ and he does it so well. He even uses door frames to pull up on. He is coasting very well now. He migrated just this morning from holding onto the tub to the toilet. He is gettting braver and braver. Letting go of things and and can even stand on his own for just afew seconds without holding onto anyone or anything. We still have no teeth. I dont think he is ever getting any. I have from time to time thought about cutting the gums open and pulling the teeth out myself. LOL KIDDING. But he is REALLY fussy this weekend, so Maybe, just maybe they are finally on their way. Still swelling in his gums from time to time. We found a house that we really liked, put an offer in and they accepted. We will be moving to Hazel Green if all goes well in closing with this house. We are set to close on the 17th of Dec... which is one day before Kade will be 11 months old. I can't wait to get our own house again. We tried the ferber method the other day... it was horrible. Kade cried and so did I. Hated doing that to him, but he finally fell asleep, but he cried while I stood by his bed. He screamed when I left the room, so none of that for me. We had a great Thanksgiving. Kade enjoyed his first bit of dressing and absolutely loves cranberry sauce. Oh- and he loves his Aunt Jeanie's Three layer delight. YUMMY! Madi is still loving her dance/ ballet class very much. I signed her up last week for the next semester. I am going to let her continue to go to The Little Gym for a dance/gym class until the fall semester starts back. I am then enrolling her in just a dance class until she is in the first grade. Then she will start one dance class per week and one gymnastics class per week. She does so good at it. In her tap, she does more of a STOMP than tapping. Her ballet moves are actually pretty good. I am very impressed and so are her teachers since she is half a semester behind the other girls. She is very attentive and tries to do exactly what the teachers do. All the teachers absolutely love her. I actually see favoritism shown towards her.. which I kinda don't like because I don't want my daughter known as a "brown noser" ever.. but it is nice in one sense because all the teachers are constantly spending time with her helping her do things. She is good in gym too. Esp doing flips and on the bars. She can't seem to figure out how to put her feet on the bars and walk on them though. Guess I need to find a playground with low bars and teach her this. Her dance kicks are really HIGH kicks. The teacher actually had to "call her out" and tell her to calm down because she almost kicked one girl in the head. LOL. I have pics.. I will post them in another blog later on. Until then, feel free to check out my facebook for updated pics.
Closing on the house is coming up really soon. We found a nice house with 2500 sq ft, 1/2 acre in a great subdivision. It is a 10-15 yr old house and needs updating. We close on the 17th, but probably won't move in until the first of the year before school goes back in session. We are painting the entire house before we move in and will be re-doing the kitchen. I will post before and after pics. Some updates will be done later on a few months/years down the road. We are proud of the home we have found and can't wait to get our hands on it and put our touch/updates to it!!! Well that's all for now folks.... as if this wasn't enough.

Wow.. Definitely need to update!

I haven't been on to blog since Kaiden was almost one month old. I guess I should do some updating. Kade is now five months old. He will be six months on the 18th of this month. When he was three months old, Kade learned to "bounce himself" in his bouncer! He kicks his little legs and bounces himself back and forward. It is so cute! He really gets to going sometimes and it looks like he is going to catapult himself right out of that thing. At his four month check-up Kaiden was 26 1/4 inches long! Going to be a tall boy. He weighed 16.2 lbs! He is quite a heavy boy! At four months, he started sleeping in his own bed in his and Madi's room. He did well with the adjusting. I still have to put him in his bouncer and let him sleep in it in his crib. I can't get the boy to sleep flat! I am going to conquer that soon enough. I will be so glad when we sell our home so he will have his own room. Ferber method will be used then! Kade can roll over from front to back and back to front. He can sit by himself for a few seconds, but slowly starts slumping over. He tries to crawl. Gets his knees up under him, but won't push forward. He stands up really well. Steve lets go of him and lets him hang onto the couch, and he stands there for a min before falling backwards (Steve catches him of course). He is such a happy baby now! So smiley! He's first words (UGH) was Daddy. He has been saying it for a couple of weeks now. And they both rub it in. He is such a Daddy's boy. Hoping that will slightly change in the future! HA. He started eating rice cereal at 4 months, and occasionally some oatmeal. He loves it! He also started jumping in the jumperoo. Took him a couple of days, but he learned how to make himself bounce and he loves that thing!!! When he turned five months old (actually a couple of day before) he started trying out some baby food mixed in with his cereal. He REALLY loves it! He is such a messy eater! He gets the food all over him in the process of eating! He has tried bananas, pears, and applesauce so far and loves them all. So far so good and no food allergies! Next is peaches! Which I am a little nervous about b/c Madi was allergic to them when she tried them.
We took the kids to my parent's house to swim. Madi got in and loved it b/c the water was warm. She now floats around in a little swim suit with a ring float on it all over the pool. She has learned to kick and paddle all over the pool. She really enjoys it and it is so hard to get her out of the pool! Kade even got a swimmer put on and went in the pool with me. He started kicking his legs out like a frog (the same way he does in his jumperoo). He absolutely loved it! We went to the river for the first time with the kids this past week. We did an early Fourth of July celebration since I had to work on the fourth. We went to Steve's aunt's place on the river and spent Thursday & all day Friday there. I thought Madi would be scared of the water.. but NOPE! She jumped right in with her little arm floaties on and swam all around. She never wanted to get out! Kade even got in the river with his daddy and he had a ball! Kicking like a little frog. Then he started splashing the water with his hand. Splashing both him and his daddy in the face! We then took the kids for a ride on the pontoon boat! Both kids enjoyed it. Kade sat with me on one of the back seats. His little life jacket swallowed him whole! HA. He really enjoyed watching the water come off the motor in the back! Madi sat there with her little Dora sunglasses on top of her head looking at all the surroundings! When we got back, we went fishing. We had bought a Dora fishing rod for Madi. We were fishing with crickets and Madi was freaked out by them! HA. She caught her first fish! A small brim! She was so proud. I will be posting pics on my myspace and facebook accounts. I went to get the camera to take a pic while she held the fisihing pole with the fish on it. The fish started flopping and Madi screamed at the top of her lungs. It freaked her out! It was so funny. We then spent the night by the fire! The kids roasted marshmellows which Madi loved! Then the kids went in the camper to lie down and watch some Cat & the Hat! I took Kade out by the fire with me. He fell asleep on the swing while we chatted! Then it was up at 4am. Breakfast followed by more fishing! And then I took Madi for a ride on the bass boat! She loved it! The wind blowing us away and water splashing in our fast! She loved it when her Uncle Doug went really fast! We really enjoyed the trip and wished we could have stayed longer!
Yesterday was the fourth of July. I was really upset b/c I had to work and miss all the fun. We all made food and brought to work and ate. It was delicious.. so that made the day somewhat better. It was a busy day, and somewhat sad with some of the trauma that we saw! Steve had started feeling sick. I think his allergies were acting up and he didn't sleep well. So mom & dad offered to come get all three kids and take them with them. They took them to their house where they went swimming. Madi is finally starting to get braver and jumping in the pool now as long as someone is holding her hand. Kade got in and enjoyed himself kicking like a frog again. They got out and got ready. Took the kids to the firework show in Athens! Madi was a little scared at first b/c it was so loud. Get this= she covered her eyes when the loud noises started! HA. Mom told her she needed to cover her ears, not eyes. She finally learned how to stick her finger in her ears to "plug" them up! Kade wasn't scared at all. The noise never bothered him. He just sat there and watched the fireworks. Half way through it he got sleepy and went to sleep!
Hate it I missed his first fourth of July... will miss the second one too. Well, that brings you all up to speed. Maybe I will get on more often to post things! Ha. Life is MUCH busier with two little ones!

Kaiden's first cold

Well, Kaiden is sick. He started out being really fussy and crying a lot. So, we thought he was either gassy or had colic. So, off to Wal-mart we went to buy some gas meds. We gave him mylicon, and he was still fussy. Next day, I realized why. He couldn't breath. He started doing a lot of snorting and gasping for air. The next morning, it was worse after being up all night long with him so I called the doctor's office. Waited all day and finally had to call them back again- and they told me there was nothing they could do b/c he was too young to give meds. To shoot saline in his nose and suction him out and run the humidifier. So, I started sucking his nose out. Nothing much was coming out. I had forgot all about the humidifier. I finally dug it out and got it going. He is breathing somewhat better now, but still snoring, but not snorting quite as bad. You can hear the rattling in his chest still, but he has started coughing and it sounds like it is starting to break up some. We bought a battery operated nasal aspirator, and it is still not pulling anything out. But we have only had the humidifier working for one night, so hopefully since it is starting to break up some, within the next few days hopefully I can get some of that stuff out of him!!!
He sounds horrible. And i just want my baby to feel better soon!!!

Kaiden's Two week check-up

Okay, so off to Dr. Patz we went this morning. They weighed Kaiden and he weighed 8 lbs and 12 oz!!!!! WOW! My little piglet is growing fast!!! He was down to 6 lbs and 10 oz when we were at Dr. Patz office the day after we left the hospital!!! So, that is a gain of 2 lbs and 2 oz in two weeks. I asked the doc if that was too big a weight gain at once, and he said no. The measured him, and he is now 21 3/4 inches long!!! HOLY COW!!! He was only 19.5 inches when he was born. Dang! How do you grow 2.25 inches in only two weeks? Did they measure him correctly at the hospital?? Ha. I am sure they did. I can't believe how fast he is growing. Dr. Patz checked lil' man out thoroughly and said he looks good- or absolutley perfect as he stated!!! We don't go back to see him until he is two months old. No shots this time, but he did get his heal poked again. He hates that! I guess they all do!!

Recovery/ The first week

So, I had Kaiden on the 18th. The next day, I went to surgery at 11 am and had my tubal ligation. They only had to tie off the right side since the left side was tied when I had my ectopic pregnancy back in November of 2000. Kaiden also had surgery that day while I was in pre-op. He had his circumcision done. Bless his heart. The rest of the day, Kaiden was really sleepy thanks to the sedation. He was a little fussy when changing his diaper, but not bad. The day of my surgery I felt fine. Much to my surprise, I wasn't sleepy. In fact, I woke up on the way from the surgery suite to recovery. When I realized I was on my way to recovery, I told the nurses that it was weird b/c I had a dream that Dr. Reidy was telling me that my son's surgery went well. I remember her talking to me and telling me that he had the surgery done and that he did just fine and he was going to be sleepy that day, etc. It seemed so real, but when I realized that I was on my way to recovery, I figured I must have dreamed it! I did great in recovery and was very talkative. All the nurses kept saying how sweet I was and that I was the nicest person they had had all day long. (ME??) Ha. Well, I stayed in recovery for a few min and then wound up going back up to my room. In the room waiting was Steve, Kaiden, my mom-in-law, and Becky. Surprisingly I was wide awake for the rest of the day. Didn't feel sore at all. I was up and down walking around. Moving around just fine. I got a little crampy when Kaiden would breast feed, but that was all. I thought, man this surgery was a piece of cake and recovery is going to be so easy. WRONG! Later that night I started cramping really badly. They brought me my ibuprofren and offered percocet. I refused the percocet, but took the Ibuprofren. It helped with the cramping, but I started feeling more pain. The next morning I was feeling what I thought was "gas trapped." So I went walking around trying to rid myself of the gas. I found out from Dr. Reidy that they didn't use gas, the pain I was experiencing was the site of the tubal ligation. It feels just like sharp gas stabbing pains. She told me I did need to walk to help with moving around. I continued to walk, but got more and more in pain, so I started taking percocet! It helped big time but makes me very sleepy! Before leaving the hospital on Tuesday, Kaiden had to have labwork drawn at 48 hrs post-delivery. They checked his bilirubin levels (which we already knew he was jaundiced a little, but since he was latching on and breast feeding so well, no one was concerned with it and thought the levels would go down the more he fed). The labwork came back and his levels were up to 11! I thought they were going to keep us, but said since he is feeding well that I could just go to the doc in the morning and have it redrawn. So, home we went. The nurse begged me not to formula feed until we saw the doctor. We got home, and I was still only breastfeeding until late that night Kaiden was still wanting to be fed every hour. I told Steve that he wasn't getting enough milk, that I must not be producing enough again. I decided to the bottle and formula feeding we would go. I didn't want him to wind up as sick from jaundice as Madison got just b/c I wanted to so badly breast feed. I started pumping and sure enough, I wasn't producing much milk at all!!! The first night was rough as he was still waking up every hour to feed. Changing his diaper is quite the task. He gets so ill when the clothes come off. He does NOT like to be cold that is for sure. Plus, going from changing a girl diaper to a boy diaper is so much different!!! We lay a wipe over his pee-pee so keep him from peeing on us! Steve and I have both been peed on a couple of times. And of course Kaiden has peed on himself a few times as well! We have to doctor the circumcision. It was easier at first b/c we had tubes of petroleum jelly that we could just "ring" around the penis head. Since running out of that, we are having to use the jar of vaseline. It is much harder getting it to "ring" around when we have to use our fingers to do it! And of course we have to put alcohol on the umbilical cord. It seems to be healing well (both the circumcision and the cord). I don't think it will be too much longer at all before the both of them are completely healed. I will be so glad when I can just take off the diaper, wipe, and throw another diaper on. Changing his diaper now seems like it takes 20 mintues!!! We took Kaiden to the doctor the next day. His bilirubin levels were up to 12!! So glad we started supplementing b/c if not they probably would have been even higher and he might have had to go back in the hospital. Doctor says he looks really healthy. He also made a reference to Madison that he could not believe that she was only two years old. I told him she was 28 months and he was in shock. He thought she was older! He made reference to how "big" she talks. Ha. Thanks to me talking to her all the time- it is paying off!
Now the last day in the hospital I received an email from a friend telling me that our bassinet had been recalled! GREAT! Kaiden is about to come home- and what is he going to sleep in. I tell Steve we could move the crib in the bedroom. He doesn't want to do this. He wants to just use the bassinet we have for a few days until we get a new one and I refuse. I tell him we have to buy a new one or the crib has to come in the room. I am not risking my child's life over this! We have no money, so they only option, get my MIL to buy a new one. So, we go home from the hospital and she cooks us supper. We eat, then all load up and go to Walmart. Only me & the MIL go in since Kaiden is not allowed in such places just yet (til he is 6 wks old per the pediatrician we saw at the hospital). It was hard walking all the way back to the back and around. I was hurting so badly. We found a bassinet and bought it. The next day after going to the doctors' office we had to stop back by walmart b/c I had forgotten to buy formula! Other than those ventures, we have been sitting at home. Doing a bunch of nothing. I take my meds and it makes me sleepy. I sleep when Kaiden sleeps. Both Steve and I are in la-la land with a new baby around. We both hold him constantly and I told Steve I dare him to tell me I am holding him too much or spoiling him. This is my last baby and I will hold him as much as I want too!! I am still really sore and in a lot of pain. Today is the first day that I have spent the entire day awake!!! I actually got online and updated some stuff and put up some pics!!
Madison did really well at adjusting to the new baby. She loves him. Wants to always hold him, kiss him, hug him, help change him, feed him, bathe him! She is super sweet to him always telling him "it'll be alright". Ha. She is super sweet. She actually broke my heart last night b/c Steve has been putting her to bed. She has been allowing him to do things with her that she would only let Mommy do before I had Kaiden. I told her last night that I would come in her room and give her night kisses once I got done tending to Kaiden. She told me no that her daddy would put her to bed that I need to watch bubba. This broke my heart into a million pieces and I just cried. I have cried several times b/c I have been so busy with him and so sore from surgery that I can't do much of anything with her. And it saddens me since she was my world before he came along. And I don't want her to feel like I don't love her anymore. I love them both equally and want to spend as much time with the both of them as possible. I only hope I recover soon so that I can start doing more with her.
Today was the first day of jealosy that I saw in Madison....
She was sitting next to me while I was holding Kaiden. I had him sitting up looking at us. He was alert and kept looking at me and I was talking to him. Madison kept grabbing my chin and turnin my face towards her saying "no, look at me" and then with her other hand she would start stroking my hair. She did this numerous times. It was kinda sad. Cause I would look at her for a few min, but then I would have to turn and look back at Kaiden too since he was alert and looking at us! And she continued to do and say the same thing over and over again. Then I noticed the regression. I put together the Rainforest floor gym and laid Kaiden on it. Steve and I got in the floor to "play" with him. Madison was in her room playing and came in the livingroom and joined in on the fun. I got up and left them all in there to go pump. Madison eventually came in the bedroom with me and Steve and Kaiden followed shortly there after. Madi was singing to her karaoke machine and we were dancing/singing with her. Laughing- it was so cute! Kaiden kept looking at me and Steve of course was making references about "lunch/milk,etc". We went back in the LR when I was done and Madi laid down on the floor gym playing like a baby! I played with her. I did tell her that that was actually a baby toy, and that she played with big girl toys like her dolls, stroller, and laptop computer, etc. But I let her play in it anyways b/c I didn't want to hurt her feelings. The I laid Kaiden down for "tummy time" on his blanket. Madison had to lay on her tummy too and was copying everything Kaiden did- raising her head looking from left to right. When I laid him on his back, she did the same exact thing! On her back she went. Then we gave him his bath. She kept trying to help bless her heart. She wound up putting his drying towel in the bath water. Had to get a new one. Steve kind got ill with her for it and for constantly trying to help. I asked him to please be patient with her b/c she just wanted to help and participate and didn't know any better. I told him I was also noticing signs of jealousy and didn't want her feelings to be hurt, so please be kind & patient with her. So, he said no more to her, and I let her kinda half way help even though with him not being able to actually sit in a bath tub there isn't much help that she could do really. Once we were done and clothed him, she wanted me to give her a bath the same way I did bubba. I didn't entertain this idea. I told her she was a big girl and that big girls took showers and baths in the tub! That bubba was a baby and had to take his baths like this until his boo-boo on his belly button fell off. Then he would take baths in the baby tub like she did when she was a baby. I have noticed her several times put his pacifier and his bottle in her mouth!!! I stopped her both times I caught her doing those and told her no that those were to be put in bubba's mouth only. That she wasn't a baby and only babies used those things.
It upsets me that she is finally starting to show that she is jealous. I do not ever want her to feel that either me or Steve don't love her anymore. I don't want her to resent her brother. I want them to grow up and protect each other and be close to one another and love each other! I want them to have a great relationship just like I want to have a great relationship with each of them.
I just want my recovery to speed up and get over with. I am ready to get back to bouncing around everywhere. Doing housework, playing with Madison, tending to Kaiden. Going places and doing things!!!
I am bored at home doing nothing. I have decided that I am not going to devote a lot of my time to Myspace, Bellyhood, Cafemom, e-mail, or this blog. I will get on probably daily and check things, but it is going to be while the kids are napping or after they go to bed at night. I am not going to spend my time on the computer or watching tv. I am going to devote myself to being a wonderful wife & mother! I want to make my house clean each day, provide clean laundry each day, cook breakfast, lunch, and dinner each day!! I want to spend time playing games and playing with toys with my children. I want to spend every moment watching Kaiden grow and develop! I want to spend more time with Madison teaching her ABC's, 123's, colors, and shapes. I do not want my children to be parented by anyone else or by TV. My daughter has watched a lot of Tv and movies. She has learned a lot from them I will give her that. She watches, pays attention, and learns. But I don't want her to learn everything from them. Don't get me wrong, I have spent lots of time talking to her, reading to her, and teaching her things myself. But I want to spend more time with her. She has already proven she is a very beautiful, talented, intelligent little girl. I want to help her continue along this path to one day become a beautiful, talented, intelligent grown woman. I want to be every part of that that I can be. I also want to help my son grow in the same way. I want to have a close relationship with them.
So, that being said, I can't say I will update this blog very much at all. If I continue to have a problem with putting too much time on the internet, myspace, bellyhood, blog, etc. I will delete them all.
I am only hoping that my hubby will chose the same path as me. I have watched him play his COD: world at war game daily since we have been home from the hospital. Pretty much from the time we get up to the time we go to bed. A lot of times he stays up hours after I go to bed to play. It is sad. He has made some friends on there and he talks to them more than he talks to us. He seems ill, cold, and distant when not playing his game. Sad, but true. I hope he sees how he does. I haven't said anything to him yet. But I do plan on talking to him soon about it. In fact, the next time he is ill with us- and talking pleasantly and laughing with his buddies on there... it is over with. I am his WIFE! The love of his life! And he has children that need him and want to spend time with him. A son he needs to be developing a relationship with...
So I am not going to sit back and watch him devote his time and laugh and cut up with buddies on an online game of call of duty..... only to snap at me & his children and be ill w/ us because he is having to do something with or for one or all of us. It's not right. He should WANT to spend time with his family, not resent us b/c we take him away from some damn stupid game.
Okay- so I have vented on this enough. I am done and maybe will update one day again soon.

Kaiden's birth story

The birth story of Kaiden Steven Tucker

Okay, so Saturday night, we went to Wal-mart and I actually got to walk around some. Then we had chinese food (which one website says induces labor... maybe it's true). I got home and we ate. Shortly after finishing eating I started timing contractions that were 10 min apart. I was debating on calling L&D and asking them when I needed to come in with me having that LEEP done. I got up off the couch at midnight and went to the bathroom. On my way back from the bathroom I got to the kitchen table and felt a small "gush" of water. I went back to the bathroom and noticed the panty-liner I had in was wet. I walked back to the livingroom to get Steve and felt it "gush" a few more times. I went back to the bathroom and by then had leaked pretty bad. We called Steve's mom to come over so we could go to the hospital. Steve loaded the bags and I called L&D to let them know I was coming. Steve told me to wait in the car, he had it warming up. He went outside to smoke. I was sitting in the car and started feeling really sick. I went to the edge of the driveway and started vomiting. I went in and got something to vomit into and got back in the car while Steve called our next door neighbor to come on over and sit (Madi was in bed of course) with her so we could go on to the hospital since I was getting sick. She came over and we left. We got to the hospital probably about 20 minutes after 12. Steve flew to the hospital. He was driving at 80+ mph!!! Going up/down the mountain and around the curves too! With the hazard lights flashing. We got to the hospital and I made him park so I could walk in with him. We got to L&D and signed in. Had to wait what seemed like an eternity for them to finally call me back. They checked me, and I was still only dilated to 1cm. They checked the fluid and said it wasn't amniotic fluid showing up, so the nurse checked my pad/panties from earlier, collected another sample, and came back saying that yes it was amniotic fluid and they were going to get everything going b/c with me having the LEEP everything could go so fast. So, in they came starting my IV and everything else. The on-call doctor, Dr. Callison (the OB doc I originally WANTED when I first went to Tenn Valley OBGYN) said to wait until 5 am to start pitocin to see what I would do on my own. They checked me at 3am and I was still 1 cm. By 5 am I had dilated to 1 1/2 cm. They started the pitocin and gave me some meds (Nubane- spelling?) to help me sleep and get lots of rest. At 7:30 am they bumped up my pitocin since I was still only 1 1/2 cm dilated. At 8:15 the nurse checked me and there was no change. She stretched out the scar tissue and it was far more painful than anything Dr. Reidy had ever done to me. She asked if I wanted my epidural and I told her no at first and she told me that Dr. Callison was about to come in and would do the same thing to me. I told her "YES I want the epidural before she does that". Then Dr. Callison wanted me to hold off on the epidural until she checked me out. She checked me, still 1 1/2 cm dilated and she stretched it out some more- but it wasn't AS painful as when that nurse did it. Dr. Callison discussed a possible c-section if that scar tissue wasn't going to give way. Said we would have to wait it out and see. At that point, she told me I needed to take some more Nubane and get some rest. She ordered everyone out of the room except Steve (so he could help me if I needed anything). So, out to the waiting room everyone went. The gave me the nuvane and I got some rest. Dosing off and on. They were pumping fluids in me and so it seemed I had to pee every 5 min. Bless his heart, Steve was wonderful and became a nurse that day. He had to put me on and off the bed pan numerous times... boy that's LOVE. Ha. The contractions were becoming very painful by this point. Pretty much unbearable. So I finally asked to get the epidural. The anesthesiologist came in and I got my epidural at 11:30am. It took a while for it to take effect. I felt my legs getting tingly. And they maxed the dose out- still not helping a whole lot with the contractions and still in a lot of pain. I had to wait it out until she could come give me another two doses of the epi and FINALLY I was numb and there was relief! Boy, those things are horrible and I don't know WHY anyone wants to torture themselves by not getting pain meds... what are you trying to prove? Who really cares whether you were able to do it naturally or not! HA. They checked me around this time and the nurse told me I was 3cm, but told Steve that I was almost 4cm. At 2:00 they finally came in to check me and I was right at 10 cm. She wanted me to push to see if she could move the remaining small part of the cervix out of the way. I pushed twice- and the cervix was fully open and I was ready to push! See- I really did go from 4cm to ..0 cm just like that! They got everything ready and got the doctor in there and suited up. At 2:15 pm I started pushing. I asked for the mirror so that I could watch since there wasn't a room full of people blocking the view. I pushed about 6 times and at 2:19pm my son was born!!! It was so easy! It was so neat to get to watch it too. He was born with the cord around his neck, but it wasn't around it long at all when the doctor removed it! Steve would NOT cut the cord even though I begged. Ha.
We are all crazy about him. He is doing well and healthy. Madison is one proud big sister! She loves her 'bubba' and is being quite the baby hog wanting to hold him all the time. She is so cute holding him. It is sweet!
Steve is absolutely in love with the boy. He is telling him he has to be a daddy's boy- not a momma's boy. Ha. He just keeps holding him and smiling and talking to him. It is so cute!!!
Well, that's all for now!!!
Kaiden Steven Tucker
born Sunday, January 18, 2009 at 2:19 p.m
7 pounds and 5 ounces
19 & 1/2 inches long
Brown hair
Blue eyes

1/14/08

Sooo.... update time! WARNING: TMI!!!! If you get grossed out, you might not want to read...

So, Monday night I started having some low back pain. Most of my low back pain only occurs when I am standing up on my feet. Other than that, most of my back pain has been up high between my shoulder blades and half way between my shoulder blades and lower back. It wasn't too bad, but a little uncomfy. That night I went to bed and tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. I kept feeling this (hard to describe) enormous pressure down in my lower abd/pelvis. Kept getting these kinda sharp pains on both sides. It was worse everytime I would move. Like if I started to turn over from side to side, the pain was KILLER! I should also mention that for the past week my stools have been a lot softer than my normal. I haven't been extremely constipated this pregnancy- since I did get compacted with Madison and I was bound and determined that NOT happen this time. I would take stool softeners if I didn't go that day with this pregnancy to ensure it doesn't happen again. Well, I haven't been constipated and haven't had to take a stool softener in several weeks. I started going regularly, but it was like reg. poop. Well for about the past week I would say my stools have been much softer and going a lot more regular. Like usually at least once if not twice a day. Okay- now back to my recent days. On Tuesday I woke up, all day having the back pain. Finally yesterday afternoon/ early evening I got out the heating pad to help with some of the back pain. It has felt kinda nice, but I still feel some of the pain. Again, reg bowel movements- nothing special. I will admit I did have sex- ha. Trying to get him out of there. And I did eat a bowl of chili last night for supper and I poured in the hot sauce- again- spicy... trying to get him out of there. Now, anyone that knows me knows that I love spicy foods. They do not ever bother me-esp my digestive system. NOTHING bothers my digestive system. EVER! I did get some heartburn (which also returned at the end of last week sometime) from eating, but WATER gives me heartburn. So, right before going to bed last night, I felt kinda nauseated, and went and slightly threw up. Not much at all- more like I 'spit-up". Ha. Went on to bed- same thing with being uncomfy, same pressure pain esp when I turned over in bed. Those abd pains were so sharp. It hurt so badly to move. So again for the second night- I didn't get much sleep. I woke up this morning and had to run to the bathroom- I have diarrhea! WATERY diarrhea. I can't remember the last time I had diarrhea. I swear it was when I was still in school- like middle school I think. Weird! So, first thought is "was it the chili?" No, I don't think so. Seeing as chili never bothered me before- and I have ate it on several occassions this pregnancy with no problems- doubt that was it. Maybe bad meat? Well- if that was the case, then everyone else in the house would have the same problems since we all ate the same chili- so that can't be it! So, what's the deal? No one is sick... so that can't be it! I am the only one. Research says that diarrhea is a sign that labor is near. Hormones are released that naturally clear out your intestines in prep for labor and all that pushing. So, this could be it... I don't know. I am still having some back pain and still using the heating pad. I am about to remove it so I can see if I can feel any back pain/contractions and make any timing out of it! Well, hopefully it won't be long. STeve said when we left the doc office that he was going to be born on the 15th- he just might be right!! :)

Best appt ever.... 38 weeks

The BEST appt so far.... 38 weeks 1/12/09

So, today has been by far the best appt. I have EVER had this whole pregnancy! Not only have I shown progress... BYE BYE finally to that dang finger-tip dilation and hello to 1cm. (Not greatly dilated but finally some progress after two weeks) HA. I am now 90% effaced! So almost completely thinned out! He is still at -1 station. Also, the scar tissue feels "softened and stringy". She stretched it out even more- maybe it will help me dilate. Maybe not- I guess we will see. I only gained one pound and she is still very happy with me about my weight! GO ME! YAY! Everything looks great. I told her about my recent L&D visit, and she put me out of work! HELLO maternity leave! Good bye work for a while!! His heart beat was strong and loud as usual at 155 bpm! She felt around on my belly and guesses that he is a 7lb baby. Which is what I thought too! Good news for me seeing that I don't want a huge baby! Ha. She measured me and I am measuring at 40 weeks- which is still two weeks ahead! Steve asked her about inducing me before I had the chance to ask her. She said I had to be 39 wks and 2cm dilated. Then I talked to her asking if they would be able to do my tubal ligation the day after she induced me, and she said, "We will go ahead and put you down on the books. You will be 39 weeks, and you already had one baby, so I think you will do just fine even if you aren't dilated to 2cm." YAY. She went to check the schedule and put me down to be there at 4 am on Thursday Jan 22nd for induction. She thinks the key to me progressing and all is going to be my water breaking. So, she is hoping that by supper time on Jan 22nd he will be here so that I can eat a LARGE supper. HA. Seeing as I will eat a small breakfast before I come to the hospital on the 22nd. And nothing to eat all day. Then I will have to be NPO after midnight! I will go for my tubal ligation at noon on Friday! YAY! Baby and fixed before I come home at the end of next week!
I am so excited!!! Finally the end is near.
On the way home I had the piece of paper with the induction instructions on it... I shook it at my belly and told Kaiden "If you wanna come on your own time... you better hurry and come on- other wise come next Thurs on the 22nd, you are getting evicted!" YAY!
How exciting. In just a little over one week... I will be holding my baby boy! I cannot wait. Steve seemed so excited. He asked me if I was ready... "AM I READY??" What kind of question is that to ask a miserable prego woman. HA. 'of course I am so ready!"
I see her again Monday at 8am for my final check-up.. .unless he comes before then.
Well- gotta call work and my "disability line" and go ahead and get my maternity leave started! YAY!!!

Sat 1-10-08

So, of course I got up and went to work on Sat morning in spite of the fact that I could hardly walk from all the horrible pain and pressure I was experiencing. I stayed there for a few hours and was having some irregular contractions and some back pain. I finally called up to L&D to tell them about the pain I was having to see whether or not they thought it was normal. I told them about the stabbing/burning sensation in my vagina, and explained it wasn't like a burning when I peed or anything. The nurse told me to come up and just let them check me out. That it was better to be safe that sorry. So, I clocked out and upstairs I went. They took a clean-catch urine sample just to make sure there was no infection even though I told them I just had one on Monday and had no symptoms of any infection. Again she said better safe than sorry. They hooked me up to the monitor. I was having steady uterine contractions, but it was more of the crampy contractions instead of the real deal. So, at least it is hard at work trying to get to the labor part. I had irregular contractions, and it wasn't until one particular contraction hit up to 80 on the TOCO monitor that the nurse came in and asked me if I felt that contraction and I said "YES". So, she wanted to check me. Guess what? STILL finger-tip dilated! I swear that scar tissue is holding that sucker together tight! She said I am about 80% effaced. And that my cervix is getting really soft. She said the scar tissue feels softened and not really hard like some of the scar tissue she has felt from the LEEP procedures. She also put my mind at ease a little and told me what usually happens is that during the latent (early) phase of labor, the cervix will not dilate. The scar tissue will hold it together. When the active phase starts up, the scar tissue will rip apart, and I will immediately dilate from 0 cm to 4 cm. And will be in active labor. She told me not to worry that it would be very rare for it to pop and me go from fingertip dilation to 10 cm immediately. So, that made me feel better. I still plan on talking to my doctor about it tomorrow. They offered me Loratab for pain and I refused. They told me to go home and rest and I told them that would help with the pain just to stay off my feet. So, to home I went and put my feet up. I was still hurting that night when I went to lay down, so I went ahead and called-out of work for Sunday too. I am talking to her about all this pain and going out on maternity leave now. And about being induced maybe tomorrow. Well, not being induced tomorrow, but talking to her tomorrow about being induced! Sometime. I am thinking about asking her for the 19th. Go in early and induce so I can have him on the 19th. That will only be like 9 days early! So maybe she will go for it! If I am induced I won't have to worry at all about missing my epidural, getting to the hospital, and will know that I will have him on a weekday so that I can get my tubes tied on the same admission. YAY! So, I will update again after tomorrows appt.

Forgot to update a check-up for 37 wks

So, over the weekend after my appt with the OB on Friday, I was experiencing a lot of cramping and spotting, which is normal after an internal exam. Esp when she went in and stretched out the scar tissue like she did. It continued and the spotting finally had tapered off by Sat morning. I went into work- (to find out that everyone thought I was out on maternity leave and on bedrest- a whole different crazy story). It had some busy spurts but over all the day was pretty laid-back. I had a lot of continued cramping over that day. And a lot of discharge- mostly clear. Some yellow-ish. I had a lot of braxton hicks contractions. I think you have more of those the busier you are! I finally made it through that day, only to go home and of course continue cramping badly. Then Sunday, I got up and went to work. I felt bad, but one more day- I could make it! I continued to cramp and continued to get BH contractions. I started timing them. They were five min apart at first, then started jumping around all over the place, so I knew it wasn't the real deal. I went to the bathroom twice and saw some green discharge. I started getting paranoid about it. Most of my friends on bellyhood kept telling me that it was part of my mucus plug, since i had no signs of infection. I worried the whole day. Continued to have the cramping and contractions. I went home with my feet killing me from swelling. I went to bed and got hardly any sleep I was hurting so badly. I called the doc on Monday morning and told them about the green discharge and cramping. They asked me to come in that morning at 10:45 a.m. So, we loaded up and went to the doc office and they did a fetal non stress test after getting a clean-catch urine sample. The urine came back negative for any type of infections. Stress test looked good. Kaiden was kinda mad b/c the nurse hooked the straps up really tight. So tight it was putting indentions in my belly! But no contractions, which I told the nurse when she hooked me up I wasn't having any contactions, only cramping. I told them I wasn't in labor. So I am not sure why they wanted to do that test- but oh well. I laid there for 30 min on the table, the doc came in and checked the monitor. Said me & the baby looked good. No contractions, but I was definitely showing constant cramping. Said the cramping was me thinning out and getting ready for labor. She checked my cervix- said that scar tissue is still there so she stretched it out even more than she did on Fri. It hurt worse this time. She was pulling hard on it!! No change in dilation- at least not that she told me! Said I had definitely thinned out some more. Which I found odd b/c I thought she had said on Friday that I was completely thinned out. Turns out Steve says I don't listen b/c she said I was "ALMOST completely thinned out". So, I guess over the weekend I made progress in thinning more. But that's about all the progress I made. She said she thought I wouldn't make it to my due date. She guessed anytime between now and the next two weeks. It was hard for her to say. I am just hoping that scar tissue gives sometime soon. I have been having sharp little pains in my vagina- wonder what that's about. Maybe the scar tissue stretching or something! I don't know. Well... now we just wait and see what happens!!

Getting anxious.....

So, last night, I had the WORST pressure in my privates/butt. It felt like he was pushing out of there. It also felt like my pubic bones were going to split into! It was horrible. I couldn't hardly walk b/c of it. It was also swelling so bad too. I had my hand resting on my lower belly- and at about the "hair-line" (sorry if TMI).. I felt him pushing out. He is LOW! Which I already knew he was at -1 station on the 27th of dec. But maybe he is engaged now? Who knows. He still moves, but not a whole lot- and not as drastic as he used to. They are more slowed down motions. I am just really hoping that he will come soon. I want him to be healthy and ready- so he needs to come when he knows he's ready, but I am just so ready for this to be over with!!!

Ultrasound 2/4

So, I got another ultrasound! YAY! He looked so big! Harder to measure when they are that big, but best we could get- he is measuring right on track. So, no big baby for me! Thank goodness! I think he is going to be about a 7 lb baby! He doesn't look anything like in the early ultrasounds. I guess b/c he is so big now! I couldn't really see his arms and face. Saw one leg or part of it! But he looks good and healthy. Saw his kidneys and saw his wee-wee and testicles! YAY! He still is a HE!!! I was so happy since I kept thinking he might have surprised us at birth by really being a she! ha. So glad we won't be dealing with that disappointment!!! Well, I am so happy I got to look at him one more time. He is head down. Great!! Couldn't see my cervix since my bladder was empty. I have still been cramping and contracting. Having some pressure down below. And I think I lost part of my mucus plug today. I wiped and there was yellow/greenish snot on it. I wiped again, same thing. Later on I wiped some clear snot like stuff, but that has been all so far today. Hopefully it isn't going to be much longer. I am so ready to meet him already!!!!

36 1/2 weeks check-up

36 1/2 weeks check-up

Wow! I can't believe I am getting close to being 37 weeks pregnant! This pregnancy has just FLOWN by! Well, went to the doctor today. First of all, I only gained 2 lbs in two weeks (and those two weeks being the Christmas/ New Years holidays) so that is great!!! Esp since at my last visit, I didn't gain any weight! I am doing great. Kaiden's heart rate was going good and strong at 155 bpm! It was really loud this time too!! Madi said "bubba is being mean to momma" Ha! I guess she thought that was him kicking me or something. I had to explain to her that that was his heart beating. I still don't think she understood- whatever! Ha.
Doctor came in and I had to tell her about my L&D experience. She said that since I was almost 37 weeks (which is considered full term) that they would not stop my labor whenever I decide to go into labor. Great news!
So, they did the Group B strep test which was uncomfortable. UGH. But it's done and over with now. Then they measured me. Again, like the other time, she laid me down way flat unlike most of the time when she measures me, so I measured at 38 weeks (only 1 1/2 weeks ahead). This bad boy of mine! So, no ultrasound. He does NOT want his mommy to see him again until he is born apparently. Oh well!
Then they checked me. She wasn't as informative as the L&D nurse of course, and I honestly forgot to ask her some questions b/c frankly, I was in a lot of pain at that moment. I am as she said "pretty much completely thinned out". So, that is what all that discharge was about me thinning even more! I was still only "fingertip" dilated (or 1/2 cm) but again the scar tissue could have stopped me from dilating. She said the scar tissue felt like it was loosening up. So, she said "this might hurt a big b/c I am going to stretch it out some" and she I think broke some of it up. It did hurt! BAD! Now I am bleeding and cramping pretty bad! But, at least now that that is done, maybe I can dilate some more! And maybe this boy will be ready to come some time soon. I am ready for him! But that is all for now.... she said nothing about his position or guessing his weight, and as I said, I was hurting and forgot to freakin ask! I go back next Wed and hopefully I will remember to ask then!!!

What a New Years Eve....

Well, what a New Years Eve. We took Madison to my mom & dad's house b/c she had been wanting to spend the night with them. We then later that night around 5 pm. headed to my mom-in-law's home where her and her hubby were grilling out steaks. We had a great dinner. The steaks were so good, baked potato, and grilled corn. YUMMY. We sat over there for a while longer and headed home around 7 pm. We got home and watched SPEEDERS (interesting show). Finally Steve started playing his Call of Duty World at War game and I got online. My back was really hurting me. Not my lower back, really between my lower back and the bottom of my shoulder blades. I don't know why to tell you the truth, but it was hurting pretty bad. I got my pillows and laid on the couch watching him play for a little bit. I couldn't get comfy and was really hurting. I had started getting a headache, so I told him I was going to go lie down for a while. I laid down and started watching Dogg the Bounty Hunter (love that show). I tossed and turned while watching it trying my best to get comfy. My headache went away after about 30 min thank goodness. Steve was going back and forth between the bedroom to check on me and watch an episode of Dogg with me, then back to the LR to play his game. At around 10:20 pm, I got so sleepy I fell asleep. I am not sure what woke me up, but I woke up at 11:09 pm and got up to use the bathroom. Steve had quit playing his game and was coming to 'bring in the new year' with me. We laid in bed watching different channels partying to bring in the New Year. As soon as midnight was here, we yelled "happy new year" and pretty much cut the TV off and went to bed.. or at least Steve did.
I laid there for about 30 min trying to go to sleep. In between my back hurting me still, and now my right leg was going numb. I hate that feeling. Steve had started snoring which didn't help things. Ha. I laid there as long as I could, and I went to the LR. I played online for a little while until my eyes got extremely heavy and I couldn't hardly hold them open any more. I went to bed b/c by this time Steve had stopped snoring also. Ha. I laid down and it took me about 30 min probably to get comfy and forget about the dang back pain and leg numbness to fall asleep. I woke up a couple of more times after that to go pee of course. Each time, I had difficulty going back to sleep b/c of the pain and numbness. I finally went back to sleep... and I had a strange dream....
I was in labor and Steve was driving me to the hospital. I was in hard labor. I told Steve that I thought we had time to make it to the hospital. He stopped the truck on the side of the road and said "Let me check and make sure". So, he puts his hand down there... and he says "I feel his head, Jennifer! He's coming now." I started freaking out! I put my hand down there and sure enough you could feel the top part of his head. But before I could even move my hand away, I felt more and more of his head. Steve was driving faster to the hospital and my hand is staying down there and I keep feeling his whole head move out- then his body. My son was born in the car. I then started freaking out about what I was suppose to do. How was I suppose to get him to breathe b/c I had no nose sucker.
Well, this dream of course woke me up, and I couldn't go back to sleep for wondering what happened in the dream. I finally got up at 5 a.m and went to the LR and started watching the news. I watched it for an hour before getting heavy-eyed again. I got my pillows and laid down on the couch and started watching the news. Still hurting, still numb... but I finally fell asleep. I woke up once to turn over on the couch, and woke up when I heard Steve making coffee at around 8 am. So, not much sleep at all for me that night...
Well, Happy New Year!